A Confident Heart Chapter 1: Are you ready to take God’s hand and trust His heart?
Day 2: Beat Up or Built Up
Day 3: Trigger Points
Day 4: Sometimes Worry Makes Me Wonder
Taken in part from Chapter 9 of A Confident Heart
Food for thought: She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” (Luke 10:40 NIV)
I don’t know about you but I always have plenty of things to worry about. Like Renee mentions in today’s devotion when I get worryed and overwhelmed I feel like God is not listening. The past 4 years I have struggled a lot – wondering if God heard my prayers. At times, I questioned his love for me and I felt like I couldn’t trust Him. I worried, I wondered, and for a season I got mad at God. I’ve included a part of my story below as a testimony of Gods faithfulness.
In January 2007 my 3 year old daughter was diagnosed with type I diabetes. Morgan was barely 3 and Caleb was only 5 months old. This brought on a new level of worry. For example, Morgan’s blood sugar, checking her blood, counting the carbs in her food properly, shots and so much more. We we afraid for Caleb, so we’d check his blood sugar periodically.
A couple of months later in April my daddy was diagnosed with Brain Cancer. A very aggressive cancer that grows like an octopus into your brain. No cure, terminal, the only hope of extending his life would have been surgery. Daddy’s tumor was inoperable. He was given less than 2 months, God gave us 10 months.
We also had 3 houses during this time. One that we lived in and two spec houses that sat for 2 years before they sold. For two years we had 3 mortgages.
My daddy passed away in February. Then, the day after his funeral my husband lost his job. The company he worked for had a merger and shut down his entire division.
At this point, I really questioned God. The day after my dad’s funeral Gary loses his job, and we have 3 houses? I didn’t feel like God was listening. In fact, I felt like he had turned his back on me for a time. I didn’t understand why he had allowed so much?
It didn’t happen overnight but slowly God has put me back together. It’s been a process that I have had to walk through. I had to completley surrender every part of my life to Him. Had I not, I shudder to think where my wondering may have lead me. I don’t know where I heard this, but it’s stuck with me. When I feel overwhelmed about the future, it’s because God hasn’t given me the grace to face that day yet. I look back at what God has brought me through and I know he carried me. God gives us the measure of grace when we need it, but not a moment too soon.
On Day 4, Renee shares a season in her life that left her feeling overwhelmed, fearful, out of fuel, full of worry, and doubt that God even cared. She said she secretly felt that if she stopped worrying about everybody and everything God would too. She was over-committed and had become weary serving God instead of seeking God. Then one day as she was reading about Martha and Mary in her bible from the book of Luke she realized that Martha had become weary in all of her worrying and began to doubt that God cared for her.
A message from Renee
Excerpt The 7-day Doubt Diet Day 4: Sometimes Worry makes you Wonder
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. (Phil. 4:6–7 NLT)
First Peter 5:7 tells us: “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you” (NLT).
When life weighs us down this week, let’s commit to:
- Stop worrying—Press the pause button on our consuming concerns.
- Start praying—Talk to God about all we’re doing and ask Him if there’s anything we need to cut back so we have time to seek Him as much as we serve Him and others.
- Keep thanking God—Thank God for what He’s done in the past and will do in the future. This helps us remember how good He is at being God.
Doubt Diet Tip: Lose the weight of worry by “giving all your worries and cares to the Lord because He cares for you!” Write your concerns on an index card and give them to Jesus. I have a tabletop cross by my bedside where I lay my “concerns card.” Maybe you could get one too. Then, when you start worrying, go back and write your worries on your card, and commit once again to cast your cares upon the Lord.